just a nice date

ah.. left this place dead-ish again. wonder if anyone reads my little corner here? Why update tonight? well it's 8th of 8th, nice date.

Once again early this sem, I helped out the O-week team [good job all!] as a CV, and then for the CV gathering was computer gal [prep backdrop + jaga comp on the day] + game master partner for the "Act it Out" game.

Had the most expensive start of my sem!!! rm650 for taxation books + rm290 for 2nd hand finance analysis textbook T___T [I am really crying my heart out]

2nd week of the 2nd sem of 2009 has ended and I have yet to properly start my engine...pushing off into the fast lane 2moro onwards tho, there are assignments to do, lab tests and mid-sem exams to prep for.

Tonight was the appreciation dinner for the SOARs and student ambassadors. It was so-so to me...too big of a group and it was a long table dinner. Made it hard to see and talk to everyone, most of them didn't even see me till near the end of the meal. Overall it wasn't as happening as I hoped it be [need to lower my expectations here]. This is purely from my POV however. Hopes go to the future group.

Had a lot of thoughts swimming in my head, had a lot to express but...? I appreciate the much longed for attention and heart-to-heart talk with my cherished friends. msn has been a colourless/chatless place for days before now... to the point I miss my late night chats so much I dare not log in sometimes for fear of no chat mates... [yes I too can be emo]

Transformers

Excellent super action packed movie. Left me excited and happy to have gone to watch it. Been a while since I watched a great movie. And Megan Fox was sizzling at her opening appearance [lotsa guys turned into wolves then]. There was a lot of perverted-ness and plenty of jokes to go around.
It was an awesome night out and owh... Thanks for the ice-cream treat!!! =]

inner thoughts...

have I been a heartless being? to a degree I admit it. I was hurt too many times as a child growing up. Now when I look back, that is probably why I act so tough now. It has always been my mask, a wall to protect myself from the bitter loneliness of being left out. A nobody, a shadow, the bullied and the misunderstood.
I had no real friends who stayed true.
To cover it up I pretended to be happy, talkative and kept active with imaginations or else I might have gone insane for wanting to be a part of something.
The 5 years in secondary school allowed me to shine true to myself. I belonged somewhere, I had a circle of friends, people who openly talked to me, the good and the bad, who stayed true to themselves.
Isolation happened again when I went to college as I watched others enjoy themselves, I did not know why I punished myself and tested the grounds with my other personalities. In the end, I found some friends who saw me for who I am and accepted me no matter how ugly it was.


Thoughts:
"There are always two sides to a story. Judge well."